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Learning to die

When the heart can't cope anymore it shuts down. Can't feel anything when you're broken. -- learning to die. When cleaning trash Hold your breath  When sacrificing relationships  Remove heart temporarily  from the equation. When you're operating Use high dosage  of anaesthetics. Place patient in a deep sleep. They won't feel They won't know They won't suffer They'll just disappear  For a while Until it's over "It won't matter You'll be better" Starting to wonder If it'll help To be schizophrenic No pride lost No offence taken  No memory kept Of what's happened A new person Every few minutes A different person in a second Just a rant  From a human I'm human, too Don't be disappointed  -- keeping it real  Everyone goes through  It's never enjoyable nor a walk  in the park Life goes on Wake me up when it's over Having a breakdown  Just don't burst  Into tears again When saying goodbye People are difficult  t...

Australia was built on Christ

Australia's native heritage was the land before it was Australia. But Australia and the people who called it Australia and made the country of Australia what it is today, our founding fathers, are Christians and Australia the country was built on Christian principles.

Getting baptized with PTSD

Q: I have PTSD but baptism is supposed to be in the sea. I've had really bad experiences and too traumatized to be baptized in the sea.  A: All that trauma should be gone once you are baptized. That's the point of getting baptized. It's much more than just dedicating our lives to God. It means putting to death our old self and being born again as a whole new person. Whoever you were before is not you anymore. Some people even get a new name when they are born again. The devil cannot accuse you of what you have done before because that wasn't you. That was a different person -- that person has died. You are a brand new creation. Whatever addiction or trauma or sickness is supposed to be gone when you emerge out of the water. 2 Corinthians 5:7 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

Wrong education

Q: What's one thing taught in school that was proven wrong in real life? A: That one race has more privileges over any other and more rights over the land just because they arrived first. And that whoever built this great country and made it what it is today with schools and hospitals and civilization should prioritise the "masters" of the land and give them more benefits and privileges than anyone else who lives there including the descendents of those who made that country great in the first place 

Attacks in sleep

Nightmares, sleep paralysis, etc. Call Jesus.  Also, before you sleep, ask your hubby to pray over you and cover you in the blood of Jesus. Or cover yourself in the blood of Jesus by saying, "I cover myself in the blood of Jesus, in Jesus' name." And then go to sleep -- you can also play worship songs while you sleep. You can listen to Jesus Image services on YouTube.

"Preachers shouldn't be shouting but loving"

That's a self righteousness and judgement tone. If we read the book of James and Ekklesiastes, we will learn that there are many preachers out there with different tones because they carry different messages but they all carry the heart of God and what the Spirit is saying to the church, even if it's not something we want to hear, it is not just good for us but the timely message of God.  Read James 4 and try that out loud yourself. I did. Imagine you're James the preacher. That's a pretty strong sermon right there. But I'm pretty sure James was called of God. Parents have to be loving and kind but sometimes, they give us a long lecture and it's hard to swallow but good for us. Sometimes Jesus is not the gentle, meek and kind lover but the fiery prophet with a whip. I dare not judge that they are not from God, especially those heavily anointed, appointed and called by God. Who am I to judge?  I don't always enjoy every church I go to and I do have my fair sh...

Removing three quarter jacks

Try styrofoam or cardboard after plucking out by hand.. aim for the centre where there are generally no thorns, grab securely and pull upwards with the roots, then bin immediately -- do not gather on ground. Have a lot of it myself. Filled up a whole green bin and there's still more. Use high duty gloves and always check the bottom of your shoes when leaving that area.

Uncomprehending Bible Reading

Q: Help. My brain can't comprehend what I'm reading. I'm think like a squirrel with zero attention span. Answer: My mother couldn't understand what she read, English being her second language but she read the Bible in the wee hours every morning, under a pen-light, under her pillow, secretly, so her father wouldn't notice. They shared a room. For years, he never found out. She's now a senior pastor with my dad, over several churches around the country. When you read the Bible, the Spirit is fed. It's not what your mind comprehends. Read with your heart.

Impossible to Forgive

And forgive us our debts, As we forgive our debtors. Matthew 6:12 But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Matthew 6:16 Forgiveness is necessary to go to Heaven, yes. But forgiveness is a choice, not a feeling. Regardless of how you feel, if you choose to forgive, just say the words, and say it aloud if you have to, "I forgive him." Like how Erika Kirk did it. It is unimaginably difficult but so necessary for your sake, not his. He wouldn't even know.  In fact, if you do not forgive him, you're only hurting yourself and risking your own salvation. Why give him more than you need to? He's already destroyed your past, don't let him destroy your future. If you want to heal, say the words, redeem your salvation, and don't give him another inch. Forgiveness is not saying he is innocent or that it never happened or that you weren't affected. Forgiveness means you are not allowing anymore of what has ha...

Expiring at 30

Turning 30 and still can't find the godly and mature man you're looking for? God's will for us is not always the ideal we have in mind. Sometimes we need to let go and let God decide. It takes years for that level of maturity and godliness you are looking for. You don't always get that the day you get married but you have to pray them into it. It is a process. This was the advice given to me by a godly woman when I was nervous about the man I was about to marry. She pointed at her husband and said, "Do you think he was always this godly and mature from the beginning? No, but as a wife, we have to pray them into it." When I first prayed about a certain man that was interested in me, I took out my list: the 50 things I required, my criterion for my future spouse -- pray and fast weekly, does devotion, a good father, etc. God told me to take out my list, so I took it out. And then He said, "Now, start applying that to yourself, one by one."  I had such ...

When to fast?

Two types of fasting -- the regular one meal a week type. And the full blown one week to forty days type because we have to make a life-changing decision or because we have reach a certain point in life where there is no where else to go but on your knees or that time when you feel a certain need in your heart to draw closer to God.

Unavailable Grandparents

When we are kids, we expect so much on our parents. Now that we are older, we are much more understanding and mature. Make it up to them -- tell them how you appreciate their presence. A lot of old people don't think they're needed or wanted and have to be told that their presence is appreciated.  This cancel culture today too easily writes adult parents off. We don't write off our parents nor do we replace them. We make sacrifices, at their terms, not ours, if we sincerely want them around.

Not satisfied in a Lovely Church

Found a lovely church and made friends but something still doesn't sit right and you want more. Answer: It seems what you are looking for is not just about the right church but you have a desire to grow deeper in the Lord. This is good spiritual hunger. You are not looking for a social club but you are looking for more of Him.  What you need is intimacy with God. This is through your personal relationship with the Lord which can only be achieved how all relationships are built -- through conversation. There is no conversation without being able to hear the person we are talking to. Prayer is a two way communication. We must be able to hear His voice. So focus on hearing God's voice. When you read the Bible, start journalling and when you journal, talk to God as in first person. And sometimes, if you feel the urge, write down what He says to you in first person.

My Take on: KPOP Demon Hunters

All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify. 1 Corinthians 10:23 All things are lawful for me, but all things are not helpful. All things are lawful for me, but I will not be brought under the power of any. 1 Corinthians 6:12

Does prayer really work in your life?

Yes. You have no idea. If it wasn't for prayer, I wouldn't be here. My mom saw me dead in her arms and prayed against it. About half an hour later, she dropped me off by the side of the road to go to school. I waited at the pedestrian crossing for the light to turn and when it did, I finally ran across. Little did I know that a car the street on the other side of the crossing assumed he would be able to speed across before anyone walked to his side of the road. He couldn't see me because of the hedges on the divider and I was short. So when I ran across, I ran into the car rather than the car running into me. And when he zoomed past, I continued running to school. My mom saw everything...

More kids?

Q: Hubby doesn't want anymore kids but I do Answer: Children are a gift from the Lord. It's not for us to decide what He wants to give us. Maybe both of you pray about it and ask the Lord what He wants. Pray for a book, chapter and verse, each of you separately, and compare notes after over the next few days to come to an actual decision.

Low on Mom's Milk

Boost up your supply -- go to a local fishmonger, ask for salmon belly. Pan-fry with citrus and salt. No need for oil -- it's literally packed with Omega-3 oils. I start producing within half an hour.. the tanginess from the citrus will make it more appetizing so you would eat more. It's hard to eat a lot of anything packed with oil.

Feeling awkward about wealth

Q: Feeling awkward with friends that are barely making ends meet when we are very well to do financially. We go for long trips but I tell my kids to keep as much as possible a secret. I don't know how to respond when I hear my friends struggling to make ends meet. We give to church a generous donation every now and then but secretly. Answer: We've been blessed with a cruise and tickets to expensive theme parks, and flights. But sometimes I tell my kids not to tell anyone they've been on a cruise etc. and explain that not everyone has that chance. We are actually jobless and have been blessed by family members on these trips. However, I never expect my higher income friends to ever do anything for us or bless us in any way. We are all on our various journeys. There is a time to make ends meet and a time to prosper but never for once worry about others expecting anything or looking at you wrongly. We are sincerely excited for our friends who are better off because we know tha...

Boyfriend's ONLY love language?

Q: My bf is a Christian but not born again or have a relationship with God, I don't think. He wants to be physical and says his only love language is physical touch. He struggles with lust. What should I do? A: It's a red flag, unfortunately. I strongly urge you to pray about this and whether or not he is God's will for you. Close your eyes, pray for a book, chapter and verse and wait until you see it in your mind. Then, be obedient to God no matter how painful it may be and when you feel like giving up, hold on to the Word of God. He will bring you through. It's worth letting go for the right guy. If sisterly advice here is not good enough to persuade you to leave this man, then I sure hope the Word of God will. If it matters, in my experience,... He is on the verge of sexually abusing you or is already trying to coerce you into sin. If so, it can only go downhill from there. Flee from youthful lusts which war against the soul (2 Tim 2:22, 1 Peter 2:11). In other words...

Returning the Land to First Nations peoples

Whoever that's not first nations people should return to where they belong and give these first nations people their land back. All whites in the US and Australia need to go back to the British Isles, all Asians need to go back to their respective origin countries, all African Americans need to go back to Africa and which country did your ancestors originate from? More than one? Will have to split you up then.. in fact, will have to split you and your wife up as well.. say your goodbyes. Clearly, we have to give all these nations back to first nations people to live and govern while we all return to our ancestors homelands -- my ancestors are Adam and Eve. And I'm just getting packed for the Garden of Eden just about now. Guess I'll be meeting y'all there. Hope it's not too packed. Better be early to get a good plot of land. That's what happens when I'm sleep deprived. Goodnight.

Embarrassed about my 4th

Q: I have three kids but the last two were less than 12 months apart. My youngest is less than a year old.  I feel really embarrassed about the fourth even though we prayed for it. Any advice? A: I have three but when I was pregnant the fourth time, it was not meant to be. 6 weeks in and I had a miscarriage. Be thankful for what you have and treasure your family. Children are a gift from God. That was 5 years ago and we have been trying since. Just can't seem to have our fourth. Waiting for that rainbow baby that still hasn't arrived and my age is catching up. I'm turning 40 this year and still.. needing a miracle.

Friend about to marry Mr Wrong

Q: I don't think he is treating her as well as a man should. I don't see him helping around. I felt she has to do everything. Should I advice her against it? Wedding dates are set! I think I'm close enough to share my thoughts to her as she appointed me as a bridesmaid. Others advised I should speak up because God wants me to say something to her. A: Is she a Christian? Honestly, it doesn't matter what you think, or what she thinks, even. It all comes down to what God thinks. If she is a Christian, then ask her what God has said about it and what made her say yes -- what are the evidence that this is God's will -- just ask her to share her story -- it's not an interrogation, just find out a little bit more and see what she has to say. For all you know, there's nothing to be worried about. And if there is, it's not your place to say anything as a friend, unfortunately. I've had friends who thought I was getting married too soon and tried to stop me bu...

Affordable Children's Ministry Curriculum

Cheap Curriculum: Junior Church Curriculum for one year -- focus on Prayer, Worship and Word, splits into Older Kids and Younger Kids. Includes a section on festivities: Christmas, and even Jewish Feasts (optional). Very theologically grounded, includes printables. Only $100 for the entire year.

Dreams about Jesus

I have had a few dreams of Jesus, (one of which was not a dream but I was awake.) They're unforgettable. I hold on to them all the time. The vision I had was real, apparently -- a few others have been where I had been before.. If you have dreams about Jesus, I believe you have a special calling on your life. And if you dream of Him embracing you, I believe you have a calling to bring others closer to Him.

Kids Bible for ADHD kids

High recommend this. Illustrations are every detailed and realistic. Sunday school teacher even asked to borrow it for about a year or so. Good for any kid as a picture Bible, to be honest. https://ebay.us/m/K8BWHE (not sponsored)

Living with Elderly Parents

Have been living with my parents since day one. They're pastors and I've had a call of God to be the Elisha to my parents, so we are not planning to leave them ever. They now have health issues and I take them to the drs often. Mom is sometimes on a wheelchair if she's tired. She's a diabetic and Dad has heart issues. They don't mind the kids as some people think living with parents would be like. They're old and tired and can't have the kids too long but that's not what grandparents are for. They're not here to help around the house. I am here to help them. And if you have that mindset from day one, it's all good.

Fav Christian Children's Author

Ian Smale who wrote Children of the Voice 1,2 and 3. Changed my life. This is my one and only favourite Christian childrens book author. Highly recommend it. He also goes by the name ISHMAEL which is short for Ian Smale. It impacted me so much as a 9 year old that I made my Sunday School teacher read it. It's about a young boy who was Little Trouble and how God transformed his life into Little Christian, how he had a call of God upon his life and we was trained to be a pastor and how he went back to transform his city for the Lord, with his close friends who have different callings as well. But it was told in a kids way that kids would love Amazon link (Not sponsored): https://amzn.asia/d/e86rjo9

Is God real?

When I was 14, I had the same questions. That's completely healthy. So what happened was, the Holy Spirit challenged me back:  Holy Spirit: How would you know if ANYTHING was real? Like how would you know if the screen in front of you is real? Me: Because I can see it, I can feel it. Holy Spirit: Your eyes are one of your five senses. Touch is one of the senses, too. That's the same with Me. You know I exist because you can sense me. You can feel my presence. Another time, I tried to see what happened if I stopped believing in God. But within a few seconds, I couldn't, because I could feel His presence so strongly with me, and I couldn't deny He existed.

Looking for a church in Adelaide

The most important thing in life is to hear from God. The only way to have a relationship with someone is to be able to communicate with that person -- talk to God and hear His voice speaking to you. There is no way we can have a relationship with someone we cannot hear. You will know if it's the right church if they can hear God and if they can lead you to hear God's voice. A lot of churches but very few can actually hear His voice. I am not from Adelaide -- I'm from Murray Bridge, but in Adelaide, I know two churches that can hear God's voice: Field of Dreams Australia (large church, about 100+ people, in Maylands) and Ekklesia (very small church, less than 20 people, in CBD). Both spirit filled and very prophetic. I suggest to give both a shot. I'm not saying no other churches can, but I've not been to a lot of churches that can. I'll be praying for you. If you need to get to Ekklesia, pm me for a contact person. https://ekklesia.com.au/ https://www.faceb...

Teens pay for car insurance?

No, I'm not planning to make teens pay for anything unless they buy their own car. Which I won't encourage, unless it's cash. I don't encourage getting a loan for a car. The first loan should always be for a house. They can use the family car 🚗 and no, they won't be paying anything for it. Contrary to many, the first thing I want to teach my kids is how to make a profit, not how to earn. And I want to teach them to invest before I teach them to save.

Worship songs at a Wedding

Q: Many of our guests are non-Christians. Should we have worship songs playing? How did you do yours? A: We had a worship leader lead the worship. I picked out the songs -- I chose full on worship songs but the adoration type: Jesus Beautiful Saviour, You are Beautiful Beyond Description, Magnificent and I Adore. Many non-Christians who have never stepped foot in a church was expecting a Catholic ceremony like those in the movies. They loved it and proudly said it was their first time in a church or at a Christian wedding and thank you so much for the invite and that they really enjoyed it.