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Learning to die

When the heart

can't cope anymore

it shuts down.

Can't feel anything

when you're broken.

-- learning to die.


When cleaning trash

Hold your breath 

When sacrificing relationships 

Remove heart temporarily 

from the equation.


When you're operating

Use high dosage 

of anaesthetics.

Place patient in

a deep sleep.


They won't feel

They won't know

They won't suffer

They'll just disappear 

For a while

Until it's over


"It won't matter

You'll be better"


Starting to wonder

If it'll help

To be schizophrenic

No pride lost

No offence taken 

No memory kept

Of what's happened


A new person

Every few minutes

A different person

in a second


Just a rant 

From a human

I'm human, too

Don't be disappointed 

-- keeping it real 


Everyone goes through 

It's never enjoyable

nor a walk 

in the park

Life goes on

Wake me up

when it's over


Having a breakdown 

Just don't burst 

Into tears again

When saying goodbye


People are difficult 

to come by

People you trust

People you love 

People you want

to be with

Those you appreciate 

Those you enjoy

Those who care 

Great big people

in your world 


But it's not 

just your world

It's a world

we all share


I am sorry

You have to

Say your goodbyes

I can't imagine 

them saying goodbye 

Maybe I can

But I just

don't want to


It's like leaving

All over again

I never thought 

I'd have to

Can't do this

but have to

I have to

learn to die


This is me

learning to die 

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