Thursday, September 3, 2009

Forgive me

Psalms 32:5

1 Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven,
Whose sin is covered.
2 Blessed is the man to whom the LORD does not impute iniquity,
And in whose spirit there is no deceit.

3 When I kept silent, my bones grew old
Through my groaning all the day long.
4 For day and night Your hand was heavy upon me;
My vitality was turned into the drought of summer. Selah
5 I acknowledged my sin to You,
And my iniquity I have not hidden.
I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the LORD,”
And You forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah

Dictionary Meaning:
to acknowledge or avow (a fault, crime, misdeed, weakness, etc.) by way of revelation

because he wanted to be free

I want to be free. And this is something that I may not want to realize, but it is true. I want to be free from this oppression and guilt. And the only way is to release it to You.

his mother forgave him

You said that if I confess my sins, then You are faithful and just to forgive me my sins and to cleanse me from all unrighteousness. This is Your promise to me. And You never break Your promise. You will forgive me from all my sins. Promise.

he manage to resist sin and get over it

confessing my sins will help me get over it. When I confess, then You will send You Spirit and help me to get over it. Confessing is like a first step in getting over it - asking for help.

he would isolate himself

If I have sins, I will tend to isolate myself because I am afraid that people will find out about it. But if I confess already, then there is nothing to be afraid about because I will have nothing to hide.

he would just be hurting himself

Sin hurts because guilt hurts. When I have guilt then I am living in regret. And it will make me condemn myself. And if I condemn myself, then I am only hurting myself.

he would look terrible

When I have sin and I try to hide it, people can see. It comes up into the outer appearance - I will look tired, sad, anxious.. You name it.

when he saw himself as something better

If I keep seeing myself as this then I will always be like that. I need to see myself as something better - a good girl. When I have that mindset, then it will be easier for me to change.

personally

You are a very personal God. When You speak to me, You speak to me face to face. And when You speak to me, You speak to my heart. You are very direct, personal and intimate. Everything that I share to You, doesn't go out - it is just between me and You and it doesn't even reach the four walls. I can share to You my deepest secrets and thoughts and You can hear me and understand me and You can help me to go through all of it. You can accept what I tell You. There is no sin that is too big that You will not accept from me. You will forgive me of ALL my sins.

in a nice, quiet place

Sometimes, You will take me to a nice place - where it is just me and You and the air is so sweet and refreshing. And here, it is like the whole world is just me and You; and You and me; and I can speak with You anything. It's like a holiday.

a place that changed his life

You bring me to places that change my life. Sometimes, I will find myself in a new place where You really deal with me, and it is what goes on there, and not really about the place that changes my life.

Someone who forgives

You are a person who is forgiving. Forgiveness is Your nature and if I want to be like You then I must learn to forgive. If I am really Your child and am a part of You and if You are a part of me, then forgiveness has to be my nature as well. Right now, my greatest sin is unforgiveness. It is not easy to forgive a person who doesn't admit that she is wrong. And in life, I will find many more people like this but it is the people that are closest to me that will hurt me the most and the people that mean the most to be that will hurt me the most. If I cannot forgive that person, it only proves how much that person really means to me.

Someone who is very understanding

You are a very understanding God. Even sometimes, when I don't understand myself but You will understand me. You know what I am going through more than I know. You know everything.

the main person in him

If I think that I cannot do it because I am not strong enough, then I have to remember that who is the one really living my life right now - is it me or is it You? If it is really You, and forgiveness is Your nature, then there really should be no problem with forgiveness.

someone who wouldn't want to do it again

I don't want to do it again. I don't want to go through all of this again. Sin is like a nightmare to me.

someone who was really blessed and really benefited a lot

David is right. A person who has come clean has really so much to benefit from. It is such a blessing just to know that I have been forgiven.

something that really wasn't such a big issue but it really meant a lot to him because he was a person that doesn't like sin

If it matters to You, it matters to me. People may think, "Oh.. it's just a small sin" but there is no big sin small sin issue here. It is relative to the person. It is a big issue to me. Huge.