Doing it for your kids makes you the hero. Don't consider it a small thing. Its a huge sacrifice and you are greatly honored for that. You made the right choice. They need you now more than ever and it's all worth it. You're pouring into lives. Sometimes, a mom is like a seed. And the seed has to die for new growth. But one day, you will realize that the time you have with them is so fleeting. So don't focus on what you are not but what you have. A few years left with them. Treasure it and you will blossom these last few years with them. If I were you, I would take them off school and homeschool them and try nature schooling or homesteading and just enjoy these precious moments. They don't last for long but they bring such healing.
Get baptized again. Nothing wrong with that. At least this time, it's from your heart. You don't HAVE to speak in tongues immediately. But some people learn by following others first, that's possible, not always the case. Some just get it without anyone teaching them. But no, it's not mocking to teach it. Everyone is different, that's all. But the question now is whether you want to learn to speak in tongues or not. I believe God created tongues for us to use, and He had a reason for it. Romans 8:26 "Likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses. For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered." What probably should have been done is to first share with you the main reason for baptism. John 1:4-5 "John came baptizing in the wilderness and preaching a baptism of repentance for the remission of sins. 5 Then all the land of Judea, and those from Jerusalem, ...
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