Are you a 'Lightning Rod'?

It's something all Christians should be having -- anyone who REALLY WANTS the Lord should be able to do all that. It's called being a Christian.

Your desire for God is genuine but what you really need at this point is to hear His voice in order to develop your relationship to the point of intimacy with God. I am beginning a Bible study end of Jan. It's online and on site. Happy to teach you how to hear from God and to sharpen your spiritual ears so to make it more accurate. It's important to hear Him not just on a daily basis, but 24/7.