Please don't give up. Remember Smith Wigglesworth. There is hope. Pray for your husband everyday. I have a secret formula that I just found out recently -- intercession -- it's not what I thought it was. It's more than just crying on behalf of someone. It's praying on behalf of someone, like, Nehemiah, "Forgive us," he prayed on behalf of his forefathers. This means praying for your husband be like, "On behalf of my husband, Lord, Jesus, I pray, forgive my sins and help me to be more like You, help me to be a good dad and help me to draw close to You. Use me to be a mighty man of God, etc....." and just allow the Holy Spirit to lead you to pray him into the man He wants him to be.
Things only took a turnaround on about the 9th year or so. It was so bad that even when I tried date night, like playing a board game with him, he will be on his phone playing his game. His heart was not into us at all. I learned from one of these godly moms in the comments that I posted on a Facebook group, about the Empowered Wife, or something like that. And although I don't agree with everything they teach but I did learn to humble myself enough to do a few things I never imagined I would do: I woke up every morning and went to his room (I slept with the kids), and I would give him a massage and say, "How can I love you today?". It took a couple of times before our relationship started... And although he still burst into anger every now and then, it got less and less. We are real close now. Like I said, hopeless romantics. Also, my dressing had to change. I have to dress like a woman, my taste, of course, but the main thing is that I give a care. And even though I still hate make up and don't use it, at least I pay attention to other aspects of dressing up like buying a bow for my hair.
Comments